Justin shares about his battle with ‘suicidal thoughts’ in an emotional note
Canadian singer-songwriter Justin Beiber recently opened up about early fame in his career affected him negatively and led him to become dependent on drugs.
The popular singer shared a post on his Instagram page, where he described how becoming famous at the age of 13 and having access to whatever he wanted led him to struggle both physically and mentally, later in life.
He wrote, “It’s hard to get out of bed in the morning with the right attitude when you are overwhelmed with your life your past, job, responsibilities, emotions, your family, finances, your relationships. When it feels like there’s trouble after trouble after trouble. You start foreseeing the day through lenses of “dread” and anticipate another bad day.”
The 25-year old singer, who has been quite vocal about his mental health said that he had to “battle suicidal thoughts” in the past.
He revealed that it became almost impossible to deal with the ‘ups and downs’ of his singing career as he became excessively reliable on “heavy drug doses” by the age of 19.
He wrote, “I started doing pretty heavy drugs at 19 and abused all of my relationships. I became resentful, disrespectful to women, and angry. I became distant to everyone who loved me, and I was hiding behind, a shell of a person that I had become. I felt like I could never turn it around.”
Bieber believes that growing up in an unstable home and then rising up to fame at a young age has been the major factors behind the negativity. He said that he was constantly reminded of how great he was, and this also credited to his downward spiral.
“You see, I didn’t grow up in a stable home, my parents were 18 [and] separated with no money, still young and rebellious, as well. As my talent progressed and I became ultra-successful, it happened within a strand of two years. My whole world was flipped on its head,” he explained.
“I went from a 13-year-old boy from a small town to being praised left and right by the world, with millions saying how much they loved me and how great I was. You hear these things enough as a young boy and you actually start believing it,” he shared.
However, the ‘I Don’t Care’ singer has bounced back from all the “terrible decisions” and is thankful to the people who have always loved him.
“Fix broken relationships, and change relationship habits. Luckily god blessed me with extraordinary people who love me for me.”